*UnveiL my Eyes, Ears and Heart for Your Glory*

its a monday n here am i at home.. n not in sch.. decided to skip an entire day of sch, which is so unlike me.. needed time off to juz chill.. haben been feeling myself recently.. these few days has been damn rotten.. damn upsetting.. when i needed a shoulder to lean on, tt sum1 wasn't there.. yet oni my buddies were by my side.. sigh~

i duno wad im doing.. juz waiting n waiting lyk a dumb ass.. dis is so damn unlike me la.. tml is his bdae n i dun even noe is he free or rather sld i make myself available anotz.. wait 4 him to ask me? *wait long long* .. i alw end up making e 1st move, so unlike typical gals nowadays? well sum1 has to make tt 1st move sumhow.. y bother scared shy or paiseh.. im so used to rejection n shit~

but at least i let tings out yest when i was out w my buddies.. w/o 'em i really feel so helpless.. n i tink i'd haf continue to punch e 4 walls ard me.. when ur heart's in pain, indeed physical pain seems nuthin.. e more i punch e walls, e better i felt.. i din feel e pain i had inflicted on myself.. oni e poor wall suffered my wrath.. i duno wad to say..

i still got a whole load of assignments to settle.. so i better get started soon.. PFEA target 2 is due tonite.. n as usual, my program has prob AGAIN~ damnit~~ tml french oral n written test.. n MORE deadlines due.. okok i better fly~ take care peeps.. esp u, pris.. hope u r doing fine now... cheers ^^v